Welcoming an old person smell.....

So I went to the doctors October 1. I had to call in the morning to make an appointment, I wasn't able to get an appointment with my primary care doctor but luckily I go an appointment with Dr. Synder. A wonderful man who also works with high schools and college football team with injuries. What a blessing it was to have gotten an appointment with him instead of my regular doctor. He spent about 30 minutes with me and my husband answering questions and assessing me. Turns out my left ankle that had been bothering me was because I tore a ligament months back and since it didn't heal correctly, it was easily re-injured. The pain I had (have) in my right hip turns out to be tendinitis! But not just my right hip, my left hip as well. They are both very tender to touch and painful especially after walking so much. So I will be starting to work on "modified" duty for the next 2 weeks. Who knows what I will be doing but at least I will be working! Dr. Synder asked me if I wanted to be on disability but I knew it wouldn't be for long and it just seemed like more of a hassle to go through.

As of the first of October I have been diligently doing what Dr. Synder told me to do for my hips.

1. Ice my hips at night for 10 minutes



2. Then put on pain relieving topical cream (of my choosing)
Our bedroom then smells like an old couple lives there, not very sexy ;)


To tell you the truth, I don't know if its' working but the doctor told me to be patient and it will help, so I am following doctors orders.

Quick question: earlier today as I was preparing breakfast, I started to feel like if I was only breathing shallow, like I couldn't get a deep breathe. I still feel like this and I don't know what it is. I've heard of an MS hug but I don't know if that's what it is. Just wondering if anyone has felt anything like this before.
It's funny is sounds like and MS hug would be something good, sweet even....they should change the name to something else!

God Bless

Just wondering....

So a couple of months ago I sprained my left ankle and within a week or so it healed and stopped hurting. Last Wednesday it started to hurt again, I don't remember re-injuring it but here I am in pain. I went to work on Sunday sprained ankle and all and by the end of the day (my 12 hr day) I was in pain not only in my ankle but also my right hip (trochanter). I have had pain in my right trochanter earlier this year and was attributed to brusitis (probably due to the MS). By the end of the day I felt like I couldn't put pressure on my right leg either because of that pain. Ever since Sunday I've had pain to my ankle and today low and behold a new pain arose. My right knee is really hurting now, so much that when I put pressure on my right leg only, I feel like my knee might give way.
So my question is this: does anybody else have any kind of joint pains and has anybody found out if MS has anything to do with it?
I am really curious to find out. Please comment me back. I will start to research this and see what I find out.
God Bless everyone!!!!

Oops I forgot....

So in the beginning of August my husband and I went camping at the lake again, this would be our 3rd year in a row. We were wondering how I would do this year since I have become more sensitive to the heat and it gets really hot out there! Sometimes in the triple digits! We wanted to rent an RV and the plan was that if I started to feel bad due to the weather that I would go in the RV and chill out. We ended up not renting it and just took my car, I guessed I could use my cars AC as good as the RV's. But I am happy to report that I didn't need to do that and I did great! I had a really fun time!

Hello! I've been a stranger!

Wow! It's been a long time since I blogged and to tell you the truth I don't know why. Don't have any concrete answers...just didn't. But here I am now. So to update you all: I've been working my normal hours and trying to add on more days since money is tight right now. I've been doing ok but I come home exhausted on really busy days and really tired on slow days. I remember that before if I had a slow day I came home and still had lots of energy, so much energy that I could still go out and dance! Gosh I wish those days were back! I can't even think of doing that now! Is it my increasing age or MS? Maybe a little of both!

One of these days after an incredibly exhausting day at work I couldn't help but cry in the car as I drove home. I was so tired and my body hurt so much that I felt a bit frustrated and all I could do is cry and pray all the way home. I came home to a romantic candlelit dinner that my husband worked hard at and I just couldn't get myself to sit in the dinning table. He served me dinner in bed! The next day I stayed in bed for half of the day to let my body recover!

I've been wanting to get another job at another hospital, John Muir to be exact. It's such an awesome hospital, so many people have nothing but great things to say about it and they have money! People that work in hospitals understand that where there is money there is help and I need it when it comes to work. Where I work right now we don't have any nursing assistants so sometimes half of my day has to be dedicated to things that nursing assistants could do if I worked at a hospital that employed them. I've been applying and praying that they call me and today at church the pastor was saying that if we are gonna pray we need to pray specifically and not to generalize. It's funny that this was todays topic because I know the name of the manager of the telemetry unit at John Muir and I've been praying for him and so that he will call me and tell me he wants to give me a job. :)

Other than work, nothing much has been going on. I am excited though because my husband and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in 2 weeks! Time sure flies by! My friends' baby that I have talked about before will be 5 months this month!

I hope you all are doing well!
God Bless!

P.S. A special shout out to my uncle who has been asking when I was going to blog again. You know who you are. :)
I love you uncle!

Update!

It's been a while since I blogged and I figured since I woke up at 3:30am I should do something productive.
I have been feeling awesome!
Don't know what I can attribute it to: eating a balanced diet, working out, prayers (not just mine, but a lot of peoples) positive thinking, 4life products, I don't know.
Maybe everything!
But to be frank, I don't care! I'm just so happy that I haven't had any spasticity, numbness, pain, or any other weird MS symptoms that only other people with MS can understand.
The only thing I do struggle with a bit is fatigue, not much, but it rears its ugly head every once in a while.
But it's ok!
I'll take that over anything else that I was feeling before.
I continue to take the Rebif, I continue to take the 4life products.
I spoke to my mom and told her how great I was feeling and she said that it typically takes people 3-4 months to start feeling the effect of the 4life products. I first started in March, so I'm right on track. :)
I thank God every day for the people He has put in my life that help me be a better person physically,mentally and spiritually.
I know He is behind all of this.


My hubby and I celebrating the Lakers winning the NBA championship and my doggy trying to figure out what we are doing.

Confused....(sigh)

I went back to work last Tuesday. I didn't feel 100% but then again I have come to an understanding that I might never feel 100% and that I have to face reality and go back to work. Work was tough. That hospital is just crazy. I came home after 12 hours of grueling work and was in pain, mentally and physically. After showering I laid in bed to relax and I just couldn't help but cry. Cried because I was hurting so bad and because I just don't like work right now. I don't want to do it just for a pay check but as of now it seems like that is what I have to do until I find something better for me.

As it turns out I wasn't only in pain because of a hard day at work, but also because I caught a bug! Yuck! My throat was hurting so bad, my body was hurting so bad, coughing...the works. One day of work and I get sick! That is so not good for me. I work at a hospital! As a nurse!! I can't get sick every time I work! That's just ridiculous! Today was the first day I felt better, physically at least. I have thought so much about what to do for another job, what would I love to do? Better yet what will I be able to do without being totally exhausted after a days work? I searched for jobs yesterday and I applied for one as a case management consultant. Not quite sure what that is, but sounded interesting enough.

Mentally I am so tired right now. I'm just thinking over and over about my future and what I am to do with my life. I'm such a planning type of person. I need to know everything, need to be in control. I know it's ridiculous. I know it's not good for me, but it's so hard to live day by day, or hour by hour without being in control. I know I have to turn over what control I think I have and just give it all to Jesus. I know it in my head but it's hard to do it. I praying for it.

I'm having such a hard time getting it through my head that I have a job that I don't like. I have always wanted to wake up and be excited about work. Is that such a crazy idea? I'm just confused about so many things right now that it's tiring. I can't stop thinking about it either.

I started reading a book that I bought a while back. I hope it helps me. Seems like it's a perfect book for me to read right now. I feel like I'm not living up to my potential each day, I just seem to float by. I want a change, I hope this book helps. :)

Work

Went to the doctor yesterday for a follow up since my disability is ending on Monday.
She asked me how I felt and I said I was fine, she asked me if I needed any restrictions and I said no.
Maybe I should have responded a little different, maybe I should have been very honest with her and tell her that I'm not happy with going back to work because I really don't know how my body will respond.
I would very much like to stay on disability to shield myself from all the stress of work, but I have to come to a realization that I cannot live in a bubble.
I cannot hide from life, I have to embrace the good and the bad. I want an exciting life: I want to travel and see the beauty of our world and I can't do all that when I enclose myself in the walls of my home.
It's do or die.
Better yet "do" or "just dream".
I don't want to "just dream" I want to "do".

So on Tuesday it's time for me to go work. I pray that everything goes as smoothly as things in a hospital can go. :)

Few things I want to do:




Leaning Tower of Pisa in Tuscany, Italy




Greece!